"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. The old skin has to be shed before the new one can come."- Joseph Campbell
My life did not exactly turn out as I planned it. I became a single mom at 19 years old (not planned). Then to correct that I tried to marry to again get the life I "planned". I married a man that I knew but found out I really didn't know (not planned). We had another child, not planned but a wonderful surprise. Marriage then went sour (not planned) but continued to hold on to because I "planned" to be married forever, no matter what.
I had to let it go or lose my sanity (not planned). I left our home with my children (planned) but unfortunately my soon to be ex-husband is always at my home (not planned). Now I am ready to move on with my life as a single mother of two children. I want him out of my life but in my daughters. I am ready to shed the old skin of that relationship, so a new one (with someone else or with myself) can come.
I've spent so much of my life chasing the "ideal" that I am losing my joy. I am letting go of the ideal and realizing all that I have planned may not be what is best for me. So I choose to let go.
2011 will be my year of LETTING GO! I can't and I won't bring the garbage of bad relationships with me into 2011.