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Update on my job situation...

In my previous blog I told how I accepted the lower paying job to follow my bliss! (It's all about the pursuit of Virginia's happiness this year.) I was a bit uneasy about it at first but I am so glad I followed my heart. 

But guess what happen in the meantime..... 

The same company offered me an additional contingent position (only 3 shifts a month) yesterday and of course, I accepted it because it will give me the opportunity to keep my foot in the hospital but not really having to be caught up in the politics or daytime drama! And it will more than cover the difference in my primary pay!!  

"If you follow your bliss, doors will open for you that wouldn't have opened for anyone else." Joseph Campbell 

Diary of a Mad Black Woman

I could never understand how Helen went back and took care of Charles in that movie after he treated her so badly.  I always said that I could never do that!  Well, I need to retract that statement.  I understand why she did it now but on a much smaller scale, of course.

My soon-to-be ex-husband's furnace went out at his house.  It is around 20 degrees right now in Michigan. He asked if he could stay with me and our kids for 2 days because it is frigid in his house.  My first instinct was to say (in my Whitney Houston voice) HELL TO THE NO! But the woman that I really am said that there is no way I can turn my back on the man that is the father of my daughter.  I let him stay.  I feel good about it because he no longer control me for good or for bad.  I made the resolve to be the woman I truly am and help another human being in their time of need. I will not let someone else make me compromise my standards or principles again.

This was my victory!!

“Tenderness and kindness are not signs of weakness and despair but manifestations of strength and resolution”~Kahlil Gibran

One of the first major changes leading to happiness...

I am resigning from my current position!  The job that I have now has been a constant source of aggravation.  I get no respect from my boss and I don't understand why because I have gone above and beyond in my care of my clients.  I am extremely bored, it does not challenge me or my nursing skills.  There is no advancement and I feel as if this would be career suicide if I stay here. The pay is excellent but it is not worth my happiness. Not to mention I am at the point that working midnight is not working for me anymore.  I am raising my two kids alone and I am physically at home with them but I am so exhausted that I can't do a lot for them or with them. 

Also, my working midnights keeps my soon to be ex-husband in my life more than I want him to be.  He works afternoons and come to my house to sleep and take the kids to school in the morning.  I don't like the access he has to my home and in effect, my life by staying there.  He sleeps in my bed, eats my food and uses my computer and it is time for that to stop.

The new job!!! I will be doing home health care for one of the best hospitals in Michigan.  My schedule is flexible enough that I can take my kids to school and pick them up each day.  I will have the opportunity to do the thing that I love patient education, health promotion and disease prevention!!!  I will be able to care for my patients without being pulled 30 different directions.  I will have automony and on-going training.  I will be back in the loop!  I am so happy!

The downside is that there is a pay cut but I think it is worth it!  I am worth it!
Happy, happy, joy, joy!!!  2011 is my year, I can feel it!!

My Year of Happiness

(The Chinese symbol for happiness)

My Year of Happiness

This year I will be happy with:
1. My self overall
2. My children
3. My weight
4. My diet
5. My fitness routine
6. My relationship with others
7. My job
8. My life!
I am 37 years old and tired of allowing others to have control of my happiness, it's mine and only I can control it! Watch out 2011!!

Let's Face It...There Will Be Rough Days (The Emotional Separation Begins)

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Now that I have officially "let go" of my dead relationship, I am realizing that I am now going through a grieving process.  I left my husband a year and a half ago.  I know now that that was only a physical separation.  The emotional separation is just beginning.  The life that I had hoped and planned for is not going to be. 

Although I have no regrets over leaving, it hurts a bit that it's over.  And it is not that I am hurting over him, I believe in my heart that it is fear not knowing what my future holds as far as relationships.  I have so many questions and doubts.  Do I want to be in another long-term relationship or marriage?  Will I be lonely? What if I never find anyone else? What if he finds a new love, how will I handle that situation?  Why am afraid to file for a divorce?  The statistics say that over 40% of black women never marry, did I miss out on my one chance?  Crazy thoughts I know but this is what is going through my head.

Then I look back at the unhappiness that I've experienced and being single is not worse that being trapped in a loveless marriage.  I will be o.k.  But I have to allow myself to mourn the loss of my marriage.